I used to watch TV series, sometimes several a week. Although I could record them to watch later, most weeks I would want to watch 'live', to be one of the first to see how a story was developing or, in the case of X Factor or American Idol, to get my reviews and predictions published as early as possible so that I could not be accused of copying what someone else had said. When Lost was in full flight it was, for me, simply an hour that I had to see. That was easy for the first series, maybe a few more, which were broadcast on a channel in the UK called Sky One. You didn't need a satellite dish or a subscription to Sky in order to watch Sky One; it was one of the channels that appeared in a nice long list which you got with something called Freeview on most TVs in the 2000s. Later, however, around 2006 or 7 as I recall, it changed and I was unable to watch Lost on any of my available channels. I needed this fix quite badly, though, being very much addicted to the series and I would write regularly about it and read avidly the reviews each week and the many long and carefully argued dissemination of what may or may not be happening as people like me tried to get into the minds of the writers and make sense of the many twists and turns and small hints and possible Easter eggs each edition presented. To satiate my desperate need I managed to find some recordings that had been uploaded by fans and, through something called P2P software, I was able to watch these. Sometimes the video was a small rectangle surrounded by advertisements in what I presume were Chinese but, over the years, these improved and, although I cannot now remember how, for the last series or two I was able to watch pretty much as I had started on some Freeview channel or watch a recording of an American broadcast a few hours after it had finished. TV tended to rule my evenings, with something entertaining or intellectually challenging appearing live, or as a recording of something only recently aired, available every day.
Now I can watch almost anything I want, whenever I want. But none of it is live. Except Eurovision, I suppose, or the occasional sports event where the play is not worth watching if you have already seen the result. And what do I now watch? News. Some nights that is actually all I watch. Ukraine: The Latest is my first go-to programme in the week, often followed by Jacob Rees-Mogg's remarkably good summaries of some point of interest or debate in the news at the time and then YouTube will offer me the very watchable Madeleine Grant on Quite Right! and a couple of Telegraph journalists dissecting the news of the political day. I would never have imagined, a few years ago, that I would watch YouTube every evening.
With Netflix, Amazon Prime and, of course BBC iPlayer, there is a further abundance of films and series old and new that I could watch but I seldom seem to get round to more than Clarkson's Farm these days. That is mainly due to the news itself being so interesting.
Here in the UK I can only watch the country slide deeper and deeper into debt and, whilst attempting to put a brave face to the outside world, looking increasingly pathetic to anyone who looks closely. I don't think there is anything that the present government has done with which I can agree. So much of the new regulations seem pointless or just a way to tax some people more and make life more difficult for business. So it can be a bit depressing watching the UK news - maybe frustrating is a better word as I tend not to get depressed - but it does make me consider how it might develop. We have Reform who, until recently were surging in the polls and who have, indeed, taken over a lot of local government. It is too early to tell but I am not sure we will see the sort of big changes that they promised. The new councillors will no doubt be discovering that, much as they would like to change this or that, past commitments bind them and 99% of the funds available to them are already committed to one project or another.
I have mentioned before the Makerfield by-Election where Andy Burnham now looks a certain winner. Reform may see quite a drop in support and It will be fascinating to see how that wanes across the next few years. Conservatives may well benefit from that but I can't see them being sufficiently forgiven or attractive as an option for old Labour voters and we will have the most God-awful mess of a result in 2029 or whenever. Watching the demise of Labour, the insecurity of Reform, the preposterousness of the Greens and the serious efforts of the Conservatives to maintain some relevance is quite entertaining at times.
Abroad is almost exciting when I look at Ukraine. Whilst the horrors of civilians very young and very old being killed by Russian strikes every day are dreadful, for every few Ukraine innocents lost it seems that 1000 or more Russian troops are lost. This has been going on for some time now and estimates from reliable sources indicate that about 1,300,000 Russian soldiers have been lost in this war. That is an extraordinary number. I can only assume that the Russian people are not aware of this number or consider it some Western propaganda of some sort. They may become more aware soon as Putin may have to resort to compulsory military service for more young people in Russia in order to maintain troop numbers. If he were to announce this then I think there would be a flight from the country by large numbers of young men and women and this could lead to the lid being blown off the can of secrets that have so far been kept fairly well hidden from the majority. Much as I believe Russians going about their normal day will want to support their home nation, and respect their government and leaders, seeing more of the real facts of the last 4 years or more, realising just how badly their troops have acted in their name, how pointless has been the destruction of so many towns and villages, and areas of production when the dam was destroyed, flooding a huge area of Kherson, not to mention the rape and torture of villagers in places like Bucha and the terrible abduction of what could be 20,000 or more children, seeing all this will have an impact.
That impact may not be immediate. No-one likes to be told that their leaders are evil, or that really bad things have been done in your nation's name, that most of what you have been told in the media, TV and newspapers, has been lies. It can't be easy to realise that you have been fooled for all this time. No-one wants to admit or acknowledge that but, eventually, as conversations start then there will be areal rise in concern amongst the public. Whether that can lead to any actual change in policy at the top is another matter. Much will depend upon how the police control what people talk about and how loudly they can speak. While someone can be arrested and jailed for speaking out against propaganda, never mind actual government policy, normal people will keep quiet in the streets. Behind the scenes I can imagine discussions but it would take very brave people to make any significant noise. That feeling of uncertainty, guilt even, will spread, though, and eat into that determination that, whatever anyone else says, Russia must be right. Even the vague suggestion that Russia may be wrong, though, could be enough to sow the seeds of doubt into the minds of people who might be able to make a change. The police, the security brigades, business leaders, maybe even some government people, might already have some doubts sometimes but will increasingly begin to see that what they have believed all these years is mostly wrong. That has to lead to some change.
I worry that some reaction may be violent. If you push someone into a corner they may not just subside into a help and plead for forgiveness. They will, as often or not, lash out and, in some kind of all-or-nothing attempt to get out of the situation, cause even more damage to those around them than they had done before.
So these will be difficult times in Russia. Every Ukraine missile that lands on another oil refinery, military weapons factory or similar carefully-chosen target will carry the message that there is, indeed, a war and that Russia is not winning that war. Up until recently, most Russians could live their lives blissfully unaware that they were themselves in any danger and that anything very bad was being done by forces in their name. They may have wondered why the internet dropped out so much, why some products are scarce and why inflation is increasing but I suppose that's not much different to life in some other places from time to time. Now many must have noticed, or they soon will be very much aware, that, although, unlike Russia, Ukraine is not aiming any missiles at civilians, not every missile lands where it was intended and there will be an apartment block that descends to a pile of rubble one day, or a volcano will appear to have erupted in the High Steet of your local town. That will be difficult to ignore and difficult for the talking heads on your TV to explain.
So all the news about what is happening as I write is fascinating. I worry about predicting anything as to where this all leads. Ukraine will not agree to give away any territory. Putin will not admit that he cannot get more. He has really only one option and that is to get more and more violent. I fear, therefore, that we shall see the firing of the nasty missiles that do seem able to get through Ukraine's defences and that some of these may land on blocks, killing hundreds. It will be inexcusable. Other nations will cry foul. But no-one will do anything. Only Ukraine will act and, sooner or later, they will, either by mistake or in understandable lack of restraint, hit a significant part of a significant city in Russia that Putin has to respond to by going nuclear.
What a disaster that day will be as we watch the mushroom cloud over a city somewhere in Ukraine, and read that 250,000 people were killed instantly.
And still, unbelievably, we will do nothing.